When will my other heart return to me

SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED.. that this post isn't even ENOUGH to have what has happened. And I don't even know if I want to tell it... just know that my feelings for him is ehh.. off? Or something.. I don't know.. like it isn't as strong anymore. And also lol... after reading the last post.. I was like.. wow.. am I being serious right now? Like.. goodness. I sure was head over heels for him.. but ehh.. I don't know if that's love or not. I don't think so. I refuse to believe that I have a first love or whatever. I did question myself though... but I don't know.. nothing major really happened between us.. it was mainly just me making it a big deal out of it. It's time I let go or something.. I mean.. uhhh.. let whatever that happens in 2010 stays in 2010.. and so should my feelings for him stay there. And so.. IT'S TIME I WAIT PATIENTLY FOR MY GUY.. LOL, so tomorrow is going to be the first day of school in this NEW YEAR.. so hehe HOPFULLY! A NEWWW AWESOME ASAINYY COOL GUYY COMES TO MY SCHOOL! After I said that.. I don't think that will happenn.... lol.. not like he will talk to me though right? Since there is cooler Asians at my school.. that I sorta hang out with... haha. And the girls will just go up to him.. or something. ESP, FRESHMANS. Annoying FRESHMANS. -__- lol.. well actually I have a strong feeling that something is going to happen this year.. but I don't know..!!@!@! Ugh! I don't even think there will be a new student coming in tomorrow.. .___. sigh.. oh how I wish.. lol.. :/ So yeah.. I just need to stop having high hopes for everything.. because things in life is full of surprises.. they will never go as you expected.. so Tina.. stop.. fantasizing.. lol. School is probably gonna be your main obstacle this year.. and the year after. Speaking of the year after.. it's 2012! Haha I can't wait for that year! I don't know why.. it seems like.. it's going to be one hell of a year. But then again.. maybe not.. I'll just enjoy this year first! NO. I will enjoy today and from the days after today. I mean.. right now.. I still have everything.. my family and friends.. who knows what is going to happen.. I'm just scared I might lose something important in my life in the near future.. so I will just be happy today and tomorrow and the days after that. I really need to stop being so dramatic haha.. I'm making everything so hard for me and my friends.. and people who is involved in my "dramas" or something. Not that I'm in one right now. Well Idk.. it's just whatever. I'm feeling excited right now. But.. I have a strong feeling I'll be disappointed tomorrow.. lol.. and be depressed or something. It's just in the moment. I still didn't even do my Math hw yet.. or like memorize my lines.. gr.. So let's see what's going to happen this week.. on Monday.. I'm going to have a review for Julius Caesar.. Tuesday.. I will have a review for Algebra 2. Who knows about Computer Science and Physics.. (probably a test.. most likely.) And on Wednesday.. I'm going to have a Julius Caesar Test.. and I don't even know about World History.. and hmm.. Thursday.. I will have an Algebra 2 Test.. and once again.. idk about physics or cs. And Friday.. I will have a Julius Caesar lines memorization test.. OH GOODNESS.. I hate the end of the 6th weeks test.. it's such a pain in the ass. -___- well.. yeah. Good luck to me!


Something that just changed about me
- I got my top braces off! :D
- I got contacts now. So yeah! But wait!! I still have my glasses so yeah.. haha I will take turn wearing them.. lol

Something that is about to change.. MAYBE.
- I should dye my hair soon... :] but I hate.. having to worry about my roots growing.. -___-.. and having to dye them in a few months and stuff.. like ehh.. I don't know.. I'm still in the midst of deciding.
- I'm getting my bottom braces ones off in Jan 14th. Hehe
- After taking my bottom braces off.. I should be able to use my whitening strips now! YAY FOR WHITE TEETH!! Hehe :D
- My probation for my permit.. (6 months) is going to be over tomorrow. Jan 3rd. So.. I need to fill out my 20 hours form.. and make an appointment for my license test.. uhh oh.. WISH ME MAJOR LUCK! I am scared to take the test.. I don't even wanna take it yet .... gawhlee...
- I should be getting skinnier? Hopefully?? If I am able to join track. THAT'S MY MAIN GOAL! JOINING TRACK!!!! It's a way of being in shape.. having to go run.. like.. it's not my choice if I want to or not. It's a HAVE to.. since I'm in track.. like.. I can't get out of it.. since I have a fixed schedule or something. SO YEAH BOII! LOLOLOL..

I want guys to be like "Dayumm.. why didn't I talk to her before?" LOL! ORRROROROR, "Why the hell did I treat her like I did in the past? I want her back." LMFAO Hahahahhaha. Okay.. I went overboard. BUT WHATEVS. LOLOLOL! I might be causing too much heartbreaks. haha Just kidding.


Damn Tina.. changing everything this year huh? LOL... Oh boy.. I wanna be a completely different person.. well.. appearance.. NOT personality. I'm actually kinda liking my personality.. honestly. :)