IS MY BEST FRIEND. Hahahhaa omg.. it always makes my day!! And is ALWAYS there for me when I need it! It makes me laugh and makes me forget about E V E R Y T H I N G wow.. like hahahhaa it's my ultimate stress reliever. Although.. it doesn't last forever.. but hey.. when my depression comes again.. it always has new things to make me laugh at again.. I'm so happy that I got introduced to this site :D I really miss my laughter.. these past day days.. well weeks.. hasn't been that good for me.. and the only real person that has been by my side is my cousin.. although I treated her badly.. and like talked to her rudely.. she was still texting me everyday and talked to me and tolerated my behavior and asked how I was feeling.. hmm.. I guess moments like these is when you find out who your true friends are. Sigh.. what a life.. depressing to realize that when you think who your close friends are.. isn't what you thought them to be. Idk if that makes sense.. lol but yeahs.. hahah I guesssssss it's whateversssss. Facebook has been making me really moodly lately.. well it played a role in my depression.. I don't know.. like.. sometimes when I get on it.. I feel so alone.. like all my friends are fake.. and they always leave me out aside.. and like push me away or make me feel like the bad person :/ I hate that.. it doesn't feel to great.. because my taste in a certain thing isn't the same as theirs.. Or because what I said was wrong.. well it's wrong because they don't update me with things.. and I'm left with the old news which made me come to believe in my opinion.. and so yeah.. I don't know.. I JUST DON'T KNOW.. it's so confusing.. that's why I rather not deal with it right now.. I'll just deactivated it.. I feel that even though I miss facebook so much.. it's better not to have it.. because I feel a lot better not having it. I feel like I don't have to worry about it as much anymore. Hmm.. lol even though it is creating a bigger distance between my close friends and I. But who knows.. maybe they will realize what they're saying to me wasn't so true after all! Like after I leave to Houston, they won't miss me lol. Because I already feel like those words were empty. They don't have a meaning when they said they will miss me. But then again.. who knows? Who am I to say what they mean and don't mean. Lol but that's just what I'm feeling.
Why the hell am I so depressed to the extreme? What MADE ME THIS WAY? WHERE DID MY HYPERY SELF GO?
Dear old Tina, I miss you.
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