RIP Michael's Mom..

Sigh.. Michael.. I'm sorry. You don't deserve this at all.. I don't think anyone does. But you especially. You treated everyone so well.. and you got this in return.. what kind of crap is this.. I'm truly sorry. Last night as I was just on facebook and whatnot, my friend sent me an urgent news telling me your mom had passed away. The moment I read that, everything in my head started to hurt, I started to get shaky, I wanted to puke. I didn't want to believe any of it. I kept on telling myself that it was all fake.. all lies. it's not true. And that I will soon get more news that it was a misunderstanding. But as time past by.. I started to hear even more bad news.. I feel sorry towards you. Your life.. was already dull.. you seem lonely, and yet this happened. If you need any help.. I will always be here for you. Your friends will be there for you. Your covenant. Please stay strong.. I know you probably won't be reading any of this, as this blog is only limited to certain people.. but hopefully you will get my message anyway. Just think of this as a new beginning.. maybe God has other things in store for you.. maybe this was a way to make you feel stronger.. and I know if I was in your shoes.. I would not understand why God had made it that way so I can be stronger.. or something.. I wouldn't even be able to think on the positive side of things.. that's why all I can say is.. is that I'm sorry. I hate the fact that.. that man.. just because your mom rejected him.. he killed your mom and left.. he did not stay in this world to face his punishment.. but he rather kill himself. Why did he have to drag your mom with him.. why did he have to make you three suffer.. why.. but all we know is that.. he probably isn't enjoying that afterlife either.. after what he did.. to you.. your mom.. your whole family.. and her friends. From this moment, I still can not believe that your mom had passed away.. it's too unreal. I still remember the day when I was at your house and your mom was just laughing away on the chair texting and recording and taking pictures.. not that I ever communicated with her a lot, but her laughter then.. brought smiles to my face, she seemed happy and content with her life. But now.. it ended.. with one shot. It was all too sudden. Me, as an outsider of the family, I already felt bad and cried.. but I can't even imagine you.. the son of the victim.. family. I heard you went to school like nothing had happened.. you seemed normal.. but we all know that you are suffering.. you didn't need to put up a front.. you don't need to be in denial.. you can cry, we can lend you our shoulders to cry on. We will always be here.. anything you need. If you can do things for us, then we can do the same. For the past few years.. you have helped me so much.. you always comforted me.. you always watched over me.. you were overprotective of me. I really do appreciate it with my whole heart. No one had ever had that much concern for me before.. and that really touched my heart. You are like my precious brother that I would never want to let go. You will forever be in my heart. Even though it's a hard thing to do.. I hope you will get better and feel better.. and once again.. I'm sorry..