feels like 7th grade all over again..

ehhh, i just ended 3 friendship and another one is about to be added... gaaaah. hate lifeee. everything is changingggg! i just finished this drama (you're beautiful) madee my day, but at the same time it was sad!! AND CUTE ANDD AWESOME! hehe, anyways, back to the MAIN TOPIC. lol.. the reason why it feels like 7th grade all over again is that. i felt like i had just left my friends.. and is TRYING to start over again.. its getting really hard.. the feeling of loneliness is coming backkk, my smiles are starting to disappear.. and high school! UGHH hate it!, never had so much homework, tests, projects, and assignments in my life before!. jeeez. andd when im in the crowd, it feels like im trying to fit in.. why cant i feel like i already belong there? i DO hang out with them.. but something feels missing... duyen! celine! tram! my close friendss!!!! i miss youuu guyss, i wish it was 6th grade all over againn.. those were one of the best years of my life... as every single day pass im starting to feel more emptyy.. ehh i dont really know whyy, but i think i got a good clue. probably cause im hanging on to the past, the past that had treated mee with pain and cruelty, but at the same time, happiness and laughters.
every song that i listen to, that i listened in the past, reminds me of the time that was happening while i was listening to that songg. (that was pretty confusing, but I got it.. lol.) WELL IM JUST RANTING OUT OF MY INNER FEELINGS.. yeahh its pretty long.. lol. BESIDES THOSE PAIN. im starting to feel a lot of other pain.. due to health related pain.. ahh it sucks! and i dont wanna tell my momm or anything causeee i dont wanna bother them! and i guess the main reason is cause im scared to find out, whats causing the pain.. like is it cancer? haaah, naahhhhh. i highly doubt that. lets just pray then(: lol. well i guess thats enough about THAT. lol

~hrmm, im going to drivers ed.. well when the next class is going to start again..
sooo imma be getting my permit! then my license! finally! aaaaahh!!!, that i would get to have my mini freedom!!! lol. that is, if they let me drive -.-
~i got braces!! lol, finally my bottom bracess, i wasnt going to get my bottom braces, until i told my mom to ask them when im getting it, anddd since they had time, they decided to do it... ahah cool! lol
~starting to hang out more with the FFK.
~i got hit by the door, bruised by unknown things, got many papercuts (THANK GOODNESS FOR SPONGEBOB BANDAIDS!! hahaha), locker keep on hurting me :/, starting to abusee a lot of people!! hehe IM SORRY! ( i think its causee all these things im keeping inside.. lol. well m slaps dont hurt! i think.. aha), andd my glasses broke.. GETTING A NEW ONE SOON! lol, well the appointment is TOMORROW!(: , and other pains.. lol
~I GOT A HUSBANDDDD NOW! once again!! aaaahh all my ex husband is likee somewhere! andd i forgot their names! :O hahaha omg, well RIGHT NOW ITS, LeeHongKi! omggg! hotness! lol <33
~missing friends, and the old ones.. that had just recently ended. :[